The Room

by Lawrence JW Cooper

During my walk down the path to depression, I journaled my feelings in the form of images and poetry. It is my hope that these bits and pieces of thoughts and emotions might help others break through their own unspoken barriers and become more conscious of their own mental issues. In this process, perhaps, we may realize that there is hope, not just to survive, but to live a life that we would truly love to live.

This book is written like a journal with prose and poetry. The prose includes the story of my experiences in going through an eighteen-week period of intensive clinical group therapy along with my psychological insights into BPD and depression. The poetry describes the emotions and feelings associated with these experiences. If you are experiencing symptoms of depression and/or borderline personality disorder, or you have a loved one who is, I hope this book will help my readers recognize that they are not alone, mental disorders are nothing to be ashamed of, and that getting treatment is just as important as seeking professional assistance for any other medical issue.

Here is an example of the prose:

I don’t know how it happened or when it happened, but somewhere along the way my generalized anxiety turned into depression. I woke up one morning with a feeling that my life had no meaning, and my dreams for early retirement and a life of peace were hopeless. I could not shake it.  For the first time in my life, I was no longer in control. I felt so totally helpless. My doctor put me on a low dosage of Wellbutrin, and I went to see a fellow psychologist, but nothing seemed to help.